I know my blog has been a little here and there since the start of the year but hopefully I'll be able to get back into a routine with it pretty soon.
Some of you may know I moved out of my parents house and in with two of my best friends last week. This is a big step for me and one I am so proud and happy to be taking.
When I turned 18 I made a list of all I wanted to have achieved by the time I was 21. I was in a pretty dark place at the time, struggling with an eating disorder and in the depths of severe depression.
The last few years have been the hardest of my life and I am so glad that I finally feel like I have come out the other side.
I hit rock bottom around the time of my 20th birthday but my amazing Mom found the strength to pull me back, since that turning point I feel like I have completely changed my life. I have accomplished so many of my ambitions, most of which I was just too hard on myself to achieve before.
I have a career which suits me perfectly and I absolutely love, I have amazing friends and an even more amazing family and although it will probably always be a struggle I need to take one day at a time I feel like I am finally leaving the depression which has controlled me for most of my life behind me.
Moving out may seem like a natural step for most people around my age but for me I see it as a confirmation that I can support myself and I am in control of what I feel and what I do.
Going through that list this weekend I truly have felt a sense of achievement, some things on there were little and silly like getting a tattoo (done), others were bigger and felt totally out of reach at the time, but I have still managed to get there. One thing I haven't done is pass my driving test but I've decided to save up and take an intensive week long course in May or June so I will still have done it before I turn 21 in July!
I know this kind of post isn't what my blog is about and things like this won't become regular features but having this blog has also helped me through and I am so glad I have stuck with it for all this time.
If anyone out there is struggling with depression or anything like what I have gone through please please talk to someone, I am living proof that you can get through it and by truly happy with life.